Good-bye Cali, Hello Hicksville

Oh, I'm not really happy about leaving my beachside life for small town living. The community we live in is like its own little town so it won't be all that different. It's just that you get used to having all the things that a city has to offer at your finger-tips (well, at least within driving distance). It will be best in the long run, more affordable living, closer to my family. I will never be able to afford a house here, its so friggin' expensive. My oldest son really needs some POSITIVE male influence in his life. He is completely bitter and "done" with his father figures, so my father and brothers are the next best thing. His attitude has become dark and he wants so bad to be excepted that he is making the "wrong" kind of friends. I worry about him. I have also been in touch with a church in the area we are moving to. We will start family counseling once we get settled. Although this is not what I planned for our life, we have to make the best of it and make things right. I have made a lot of decisions regarding the way I was living and have made my peace with my past. We are now looking toward the future and if we can actually make it to Oregon in one piece, we will make the most of it!